I shake. Most notably, my hands shake. Some days are worse than others. I have a condition called “Essential Tremor”. The diagnosis came back in the 90’s and after trying a couple of medications with side effects that were worse than the condition, I’ve resigned myself to live with it.
The condition has been both a curse and a blessing in my art. The tremor makes it difficult for me to take good photos. I have a new camera that has an anti-shake feature, but some days, it’s just not enough. I like to work from my own photos so that I don’t have to worry about copyright issues, but am finding that increasingly difficult. This is a contributing factor to my working from historical photos.
Another reality is that I have difficulty sewing a straight line when stitching with my longarm machine. If you ever see my work on a traditional quilt design, you would not be impressed. The up side is that it led me to thread painting. My style of free-motion stitching doesn’t rely on the same kind of precision. When it is necessary to be precise with details, I must slow down. Sometimes, I make one stitch at a time: needle up, needle down, needle up, needle down. Sometimes, I despair, wondering what will happen to my art if and when the conditions becomes worse.
I just found an inspiring TED talk by an artist with a similar condition. It applies to anyone on a creative journey and I want to share it with you. Phil Hansen TED talk